Just write. Do the bidding of others.
Take orders. Listen intently. Forget your own existence.
Live to serve. Become whatever is needed of you. Shape not to your environment, but to your exterior group of souls.
You are a fluid state with no solid reason unto yourself, so become whatever others want.
Personality? Another word for a belief that we stay the same. We are always different, to each and every other. A parent gets a different treatment than a stranger would, a lover something that an ordinary friend won't see. So how can your personality be anything but a ruse?
So do what you're told and see what it makes you. Live the lives of others and pray that you get to understand something.
Where does this leave us? Nowhere. You can't take orders and be done with it. To make everything work we have to share our lot of requests out to others. Give, give, give. Take, take, take. Don't forget the incessant tug of war we play.
If you are tired and cannot be bothered to do something, are you sure you are tired? Are you sure your body isn't making excuses in itself? Empty the bin. But why? I can't be bothered, I'm currently doing less than nothing and will continue to do so for at least an hour. The bin will take three minutes as a slow, sluggish movement. But those are three minutes on a path that I had not charted out myself. They go against whatever plan I had initially anticipated.
Oh woe is me. What does any of this mean? It means that I am tired, and my mind is not.
The bin doesn't need emptying for now, but if you don't mind fitting it into your schedule later...
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